When It's so hard to say i love you, why don't you try expressing it?

sigh...life is really unpredictable ain't it? sigh..idk...im just sick and tired of mine if you're not of yours.. wishing that it'll get better every second, just won't work. don't you think? oh wells, let's look on the bright side of life...afterall, you are sticking with YOUR LIFE till death ya know -.-"...just bare with it abit longer, and i assure you, it's all gonna be ok.. maybe not like last time, the one you were already used to, but it's gonna be ok still.. sigh..sometimes, i look at myself, and i see IMPERFECTION...wait, to come to think of it, it's all the time...you look at me, and what do you see? honsestly? i know firstly you look at me and you know im complicated, and a lazy bum.. to change that perspective of yours (and mine) is like so hard! cos you know why? cos it's true. it's the fact.

and you know what? there's alot more you have to know if you think you know me. i can hide my feelings very well except for some who really really knows me. you know yourself who you are, the ones i cn never hide my feelings. and when you look at me, i feel uncomfortable. i feel im ugly and there's no need to tell me and stare at me...cos i know i am...as hard as i want to change that too, i cnt..why? cos again, it's the fact...im ugly inside and out, so tell me 10 good reasons why should you be friends with me? tell... ok...no bargain.. 10 is too much right? i know! its just so hard to find my positive sides, and to ask you to name my 10 flaws, will be like super easy... i know! sigh...

But you know what? what if you and i look at me at a different angle/position? will things be different? will i still be the ugly person you had in your mind? will i still be? will i still have flaws in many ways? have i not be good to you? have i? have YOU think of looking at me from a different angle? have you? and im not referring to anyone in particular, im referring to general...what if you look at me in a different way? will i ever be the same ANNOYING amirah? will i?

YOU DECIDE, YOUR CHOICE ON HOW TO LOOK AT ME, HOW TO THINK ABOUT ME. NOW IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU. SO DECIDE.